没有如果
没有如果
演唱：梁静茹
如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手
有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天
如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手
如果 如果 如果 如果 如果
最后变成如果 我也不能接受
错过 错过 错过 错过 错过
我比你更难过 不会一错再错
嗯 这次不要再轻易错过
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天
别怕太快乐(别怕太快乐)
别怕失去我~~
如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手
快牵起我的手
如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手
如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手
如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手
What a nice song..!!
13hours of work on CNY 3rd DAY!!!! KNS...
09.01.09
wat a nice date 09.01.09. I'm still in office feeling damn moody and irritated, i think the major cause is my running nose. Whenever i'm done with running nose i hated evening time, my eyes start getting watery, nose kept sneezing, feeling sleepy n blah blah blah.. basically i'm feelin awful right now but still i have to wait in the office for 2 members of six+one+one to finish their work then we head down to celebrate my birthday in advance. {x sneeze1}
today wasn't a very nice day for everyone in mediacorp, CEO annouced 10% pay cut. Goosh!!! with inflation and recession i better start looking for weekend job. A new working system will start on April Fool's Day, what a "great" joke. 26days of Mediacorp Day Off and 7days of common leave, can you believe it! Broadcast center having day off and we are starting the 4day work on alternate week. Actually the company is really trying hard to save everyone from this recession by pay cutting and not asking you to leave. {blow my nose x1} say goodbye to performance bonus.. sobs sobs...
tomorrow is imd gathering day but so unfortunate i'm not going coz i think probably after tonight i'll be as good as dead i jus wanna sleep my weekends off and prepare myself for a firece battle at work on Monday. Currently working on Focus(焦点) and it is really a tedious job. I can step into the office without turning on my computer i can walk in and out searching high n low dumping and duplicating weekend rushes and by the time i get to sit at my desk and turn on the computer I'll have to clear nad reply emails and at the same time helping other colleagues on other programmes. Sigh i shouldn't have complaint nothing to do when i really can do nothing and facebook the entire afternoon now that after too much complaint retribution finally falls on me. but well my time passes pretty fast and i realise i do not have enough time to complete my stuff one day so accumulate my job to next day and the routine starts again. KNS. literally brainless but labourous work. [7:30pm] still waiting for ppl to call me. sigh.
i have the urge to jus go home now but thinking of the brain cracking planning of six+one+one for my bday when they are also busy and tired with work i had better sit quitely and wait. almost everyone in the office had left, leaving only a few of us, adn the office is so cold... oh one thing in mediacorp thos aircons are not meant for humans, they are meant for those machines therefore i realise i kept falling sick ever since i stepped into mediacorp.
okie the 2 six+one+one called.. got to go! hungryyy
女人的第六感
有人说女人的第六感很准， 是真的吗？
总觉得我是脱离了。
感觉很多事情都和从前不一样了， 是我变了吗？还是她已经不是我从前所认识的了？是我跟不上她的脚步吗？还是我不值得她去向？
曾今何时有商有量便成了沉默？又曾今何时我们不再有话题？又曾今何时碰面时也只是微笑？
又曾今何时是一起同进同出便成了各走各的了呢？
事情都变得肤浅了， 就有如蜻蜓点水、过眼云烟了。
很想听她亲口说可是却提不起勇气问她， 毕竟她的选择很明显。
是感情淡了呢？还是她的脚步走的比我快了呢？
我想这不是我能回答知己的， 但愿她没忘了我这个朋友很想能够从新认识她。
但愿现在她是快乐的， 我也就能跟容易的做出选择。
我想要的答案有谁能给我？
You will be missed.. Huiting.
Slowly I've gotten use to the AP job in mediacorp CA, and slowly I think I'm losing myself day by day not knowing what should I do next. Life to me now is like standing at the crossroad.
I've confidently told a lot of people that I will not stay in MC for long coz I want to further my studies badly. But there's this fear in me somehow asking me that what if I couldn't pull thru my years overseas. Sigh. What should I do??? I have been asking myself that question over and over again.
Supposedly today was a happening and happy day for me this morning. I finally took my first driving lesson, it's a mix feeling of excitment and kanchiong-ness. But so happen that after i return home i recieve a shocking news that one of my Sec schoolmate, Huiting, passed away in a bike accident. The moment i saw the sms from Em n June i was totally shocked, stood there for about a min or so thinking I might have misread their sms or thinking it might be a prank but today ain't April's Fool. Gotten Fang's miss call and I called to confirmed what has happen to Huiting. At the very moment, I really felt life is so funerable and I'm almost lost at words. You wouldn't know that the last time you saw a friend might be the last time you met him/her.
Knowing her for 5yrs, although I won't say I know her very well but still, she's someone that I spent most of my recess with along with others. She's always the onepicking and laughing at my pronounciation of some random chinese words. I could vividly remember her smile and laughter, her little gestures when ever her fringe gets into her eyes, her energy during PE lessons and many more... Everything seems to happen just yesterday but now, she's totally gone forever.
Few years back i remembered clearly that when I recieved the news of my cousin's death I didn't feel as much as I felt for Huiting's death. Perhaps I ain't that close to my cousin compare to Huiting as we hang out everyday in school. At this moment I wish I have a chance to tell her that I really appreciate her as a friend in my life. But things always happens this way, you only regret after losing something.
Remembered Gracie ever told me she lost a dear fren a few years back, and now I could really put myself in her shoes to feel how she felt at that moment. All I wish now is Huiting would rest in peace and all my frens please take care of yourself and your love ones as much and possible.
I'll always remember today's date, 18th May 2008, my first lesson in driving and the death annivesary of a dear fren.
-shan-
Why is life so strong yet so funerable??? :'(
Office blog
It's been long since i last blog. It's still the same, old text w/o photos. it's been like 1mth plus in mediacorp CA, but some of my colleagues say it's like I'm here for a very long time. I can't figure it out what that means.
Everyday's job is still the same, Monday is usually the most slacking day and Friday will always be my GO-Home-Late day. Went to meet ryce, justin n stan last friday after work at PS, it was 9 30pm when i met them for dinner. Ryce picked up new hobby again, bought new stuff again. The initial plan was to watch waterhorse but coz i couldn't make it so it turn into a dinner follow my a short walk in carrefour.
Went back to TP on Saturday with Justin, Ryce n Stan to take a look at the dip show. The work this year is pretty good, esp the Interactive side. Took a copy of their work but only 6 works in a dvd (obviously, selected ones).
One of the Producers manage to get us free tickets to Singapore Flyers and i forgot to bring my camera.. Sigh.. can only use handphone 2.0megapix camera. lolx. Heard that the ride is boring but still i wanna go take a look coz it will probably be my first n last chance to take the flyers n most important it's free.. typical singaporean.
lolz. Hopefully i can get some nice pics coz by the time it starts it will be pretty dark as it will start at 730pm.
-shan-
Singapore Flyers
@ Work P2
ok.. now i'm at work and i'm super bored to death.. why leh.. i oso dunno.. it's the nature of the job.. All i do everyday is do programme pacaking, archiving.. maybe it's becoz i'm still under the honeymoon period.. Dunno wats coming after the honeymoon... hoho..
See, Wei Shan, u are such a whiner...... having good life you complain it's bored, having a busy life you complain no time... seriously 生在福中，不知福.. lolzzz....i should be grateful i have those 9 to 5 job with incentives and bonus rite.... hai.. wei shan.. complain lesssss... lol...
hmmm... it's new yr in a few days time but hor i still have no plans of where to go.. sigh.. Thursday go relative house visiting.. Friday hmmm... (go cady house?? dunno she free mah!)..Saturday afternoon to Yong's place but still thinking can make it anot.. Sunday??? ZZZZ at home... lol... HuH!.. my visiting is so little only.. :'(
OOI Miss Angeline Tng n Miss Ferli Ang..... Sunday wanna go out bo???
How about Miss Xiang???? haha.. As for Ryce arh.. after church sure return home nap rite... so nvm.. we can meet on friday after work.. hahahaha.... I think i'm really damn bo liao at this moment to even write this post....
Hmm... jus now over lunch was talking with emmeline, yoyo and a few colleagues.. Comparing the new movie between Jay Chou n Stephen Chow.. Chang Jiang is bettter!!!!! hahaha.. I really have to watch it!!!!!!......
-shan-
@ Work
Ok! lazy to blog about part 3 of my bday n it's long pass already.
haha.. anyway today is my 3rd day at work. hurhur.. everything is still going fine...
it's bored the first few days......... haha..
k its really getting boring now coz i have no idea wat to write.. haha..
Anyway Chinese New Y ear is next week!!! although i dun feel the festive at all but still i can get time off from work n slack n watch my korean n chinese drama. Miss my dramazzzzzz... oh new yrs day it self bringing mummy n bro to watch cj7 byt stephen show.. haha.. the cj7 monster is so cute. lol..
wat else... actually i have not been watching movie in the theatre for a very long time already.. miss those days that one huge group of ppl go watch moive.. sigh...
-shan-
长江7号！！
Birthday Part Two
Ok let's talk about Part Two before i forget those details.
Like i say.. i was conned, bluff and tricked. Those six + one planned it almost one week before hand.
All thanks to teng arh, act so well.
Ok the story starts on last Tuesday, I went to teng's place to return her the usb wire then she mention that yoyo now very close to her less close to mel liao. So i a bit stun but didn't ask much thou. Then Wednesday came when i'm busy studying for my Basic Theory Test. Darling jolene call see if I'm avail on Thursday for a freelance job and she slipped her mouth by mentioning something on FRiday the 11th. SO anxious n curious wat's six + one is up to and oso worry that they planned it on Friday coz my mom planned a last min dinner. So teng call me on Wed, she come up with stories that becoz of my birthday mel n yoyo started some argument. Which is like making me guilty lah!!!!!... so soooo unwillingly and afraid i ask my mom if i can change the dinner to Saturday or another day coz the six + one had already made reservation.
Lucky man!! my dad birthday is exactly one week away from mine so they decided to have dinner on the 18th!.. heng like shit, i'm still there getting ready to get reprimanded.
SO I'm still curious and anxious, on Thursday becoz i'm meeting philo n ryce for dinner i have some spare time, so i dragged teng out after her school to go bras bersah and oso wanna ask her wat happen. Coz see her face like sian sian, have things cannot say like dat. But then she refuse to tell me saying she'll let me know after my birthday. So thats the usual things we do after we celebrate a frens bday, we will roughly tell her the plannings.. etc.
So friday afternoon i went back school for open house, then went home. Got yoyo's sms that kk will pick me up. SO after i bored kk's car we went to fetch yoyo.. but so suay (dunno if they calculated the timing anot).. we were caught in a jam.... %$#%$#%.. so teng called yoyo half way thru the jam that mel isn't happy that we are late. Then yoyo was angry saying that mel always late we oso didn't complain. So the gunpowder smell started stronger and i'm sitting at the back half worrying and half thinking how the 2 of them being so close can quarrel??? SO i thought nvm la.. later i apologise lor.. SO we went Fish n Co glass house for dinner. I had fish n co for 2 continous days!... hurhur tired of fish n co man.. that day live band sucks big time la.. the sound system too loud..
Surprisingly, there's a lot of ppl who had their birthday same or near me lor... group by group there's the fish n co team singing bday songs for them... Guess wat!.. birthday girl/boy has to stand on the chair till all the birthday singing is over, and have to wear a soccer ball hat which i find it quite cute!! And hor.. the brownie ice cream at glass house is way better then the on at bugis.. coz bugis one got chao tar.. lol.. coz initially i thought the brownies at fish n co should be a bit burnt.. Slowly ppl went off and i was telling six + one a few times that lucky they didn't let them know that it's my birthday. But then GOD KNOWS WAT!!!.. THEY DID!!!!!... i dunno should i consider lucky or wat.. I was totally shocked especially that i have to stand so high, i was shivering on the chair that i dare not move much la..... then the stupid thing is i have to blow the candle on top on the chair where the candle is on the table.. haha but lucky i did it on the second try!! hohoh..
so a lot of photo taking at fish n co.. and mel gave me the Chip n Dale wrislet.. And she told me is imported from japan leh.. took plan here lor.. haha..
Sorry, didn photoshop it coz haven install CS3 to new hard disk.
So story pause here.. gonna turn in liao.. hohoh.. continue again. meanwhile can view those stupid action hoto on my facebook. Mel n jojo tagged me.
-shan-
不想追究谁让谁受了伤
Birthday Part One
I shall break down to 3 parts.
This part today is very short n sweet coz i'm freaking tired now.. haha
I had a very long Birthday since Monday, I was bluff, decieved, conned.. watever it is.. my bunch of dearie frens cahoot and tricked me.
But then because I have them i had a wonderful birthday this year! a really happy one!! Thanks all.
I shall blog about in detail later on when i have all the pics from Miss Jojo Teng.. please send those pics before u FLY TO GERMANY!!!! and buy me my papillo!!!!.. hahhaa......
-shan-
Birthday Eve
Actually I didn't think anyone would remember my birthday coz it's in Jan, most of them will be too busy or too broke to remember. So today or rather yesterday morning I recieve sms from philo asking me if i'm free to hang out. Althou she did mention asking how am i celebrating but i didn't think that she'll arrange any surprises.
So the meet up is set in the evening at Bugis Fish n Co. So we are suppose to meet up at 7 30pm.. so i waited, walking around. Went walking around Bras Bersah n Bugis with teng after her school.
About 7 20pm Ryce suddenly called telling me she got off the wrong bus stop so she say will meet me at Bras Bersah, actually i'm finding it weird coz usually ryce don't ask me to purposely walk to some place to wait for her but she does got off wrong busstops. But wasn't thinking much coz since i'm nearby so i walk over to meet her lor... then after i met up with her, she called philo
(have small talks.. ) ...So ryce n i walk to fish n co, thinking that philo might be late coz when i call her at 730pm she jus left office -.-".. so went to fish n co to make reservation....
Me: Table for 3 please.
Ryce: There, they are there wat.
Me: ??? confused, blur (look around where is she pointing, and I sport asto n siyuan)
My first question to them was, why are u all here coz i thought so lucky that they are eating at fish n co. Recall on what I've said earlier was a bit dumb la.. derr is so obvious philo or ryce invited them or wat la coz according to asto n siyuan they happen to bump into philo at bugis. I dunno which story is true and wat ever it is, I'm happy that they are there.
And so sweet of philo to actually order a mudpie (is that mudpie?), some sort of desert with ice cream. The mudpie is a bit burnt arh.. haha... the fish n co today like short handed as usually they will sing u birthday song.. but today arh.. service damn slow n cold.. but lucky they din't sing if not i'm gonna find a whole and dig in..lol..
So after the so call "birthday cake" we finally ordered our food for 5, philo n the rest decide on 2 seafood platter for 2, a girlled salmon, a soup of the day, a passion fruit drink and a sharkie frezzie, when the food arrives we are all giving that..
THAT'S FREAKING A LOT OF FOOD!!!!
So slowly we ate, lucky ryce, philo n asto was very hungry.. so they can eat most of it. Esp when we have 2 rice bowl [asto n ryce] around.. so they manage to finish all the rice.. Half way thru our meals philo contacted chris coz he's on shoot today.. so chris came to clear the remaining grilled calamari n fries as his dinner @ near 10pm?.. hoho..
Then ryce went home early coz tmr she has work, asto dun giving a freaking care abt she has work, then for philo, she can enter office late like wat??? 11am.. haha.. so some of us hanged out at starbucks till philo is totally zone out then we leave.
Philo's sleepy face reminds me of the last day shoot for Moon Face where I went for zhili birthday ending up knocking out on the table. Horrible, i didn't get much enjoyment coz i dunno wats going on.
Really wanna thanks philo n ryce for today! if not i think i'll be rotting at home in the evening, [next time anyone having meals with ryce arh can take notice that having a simple meal with her can sense how much she loves her food as she gives off those 幸福 and oyishii look on her face, with that look all the food on the table looks more appetizing lor.]... hahaha.. later tonight will be out with six+one!! Looking forward! I still dunno the plan.. it's scary thinking after those surprises for the rest is finally my turn n actually i'm a bit nervous [ cause of too much 'evil' deed. >.<].
Please dun suddenly appear in front of my doorstep, it's scary after reading zhili's blog on her bday! >.<
-shan-
happy birthday to me!
